Unsilent Running

This blog has been silent for a while now. I would like to rectify that by saying something of real import, at least some things that are important to me. I'm doing this for me so it doesn't really much matter whether anyone's listening. I've made various excuses to myself as to why I can't say this or can't say that in my blog, but what it ultimately boils down to is fear, fear that someone might not like what I have to say or might not find it relevant to roleplaying games, which this blog has been and still is about. However, any topic is really fair game because life for me is filtered through that gamer's eye lens. This is experimental since I've refused to talk directly about myself, due to that fear. Life has an element of risk so if the wrong ones are listening, if I subject myself to embarrassment then so be it. I might learn instead that I've just been overprotective or even paranoid.

What also goes along with this is the rules of the radio. If you're familiar with radio talk shows then you'll know that the best thing to do when someone on air says something you don't like, then the proper thing to do is to stop listening. That's your vote and it's perhaps the last one we have left as the docile residences of a large corporate imperialistic state, for that is what I believe firmly that America has become. The America I knew, the America my dad knew, died a long time ago. I'm not suggesting a course of action, just making a statement. That's the other thing you must keep in mind. In radio talk show vernacular, the host plays a version of himself on the radio, one that says and does things for entertainment value. Again, don't like what I have to say then please turn the dial.

Finally, this isn't the last blog like this I'll write. In the coming months I plan to open up a lot more and share a few things about my life that disturb me. Here is the first. I have no friends, not in the real, true sense of the word, in the sense of the word as it was defined when I was about 30 years younger. What I actually have are acquaintances or "occasionally interested parties," since time is pretty damned thin in our wireless American empire.

That's all I have for now. Comments and questions welcome but not expected.